hello 2009

not here yet,
1) lose more weight
2) dont be a dick
3) do my best in school
4) learn more extreme tricks on my bike
5) no C's this semester, DAMNIT!
6) finish "A return to love" by Marianne Williamson, and continue to live by it

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Marianne Williamson

oh boy

Christmas,
a time of joy.
this year my mom gave me a card. its contents were 100 bucks and a meaningful message. it said she was proud of me, and that i can do anything that i set my mind to. i love my mom.
it has been a while where someone has said that to me and i believed it.

Christmas = hope


currently listening to
any and all Christmas jams

number 2 destroyed

dear anatomy,
FUCK YOU
SUCK MY DICK BITCH



14 hours later and you are finished


i wash my hands of you

and so it begins

in approximately 50 minutes,
i will be taking exam number one of 4.

all last night and all morning today i have been listening to loud and obnoxious hip hop.



I M FUCKING PUMPED

the day has come

LETS DO THIS SHIT!


currently listening to
eye of the tiger - rocky sound track
we are the champions - Queen
we ready - archie
everything on crunk juice - lil jon and the east side boys

fuck the library

over the past couple days,
5 to be exact, i have been there for about 46-56 hours.
THATS 2FUCKING DAYS.

fuck that shit

lets go to rite aid.

bitchass library...
currently listening to
big poppa- THE notorious BIG

all i needs

yes,

anatomy, hoodie, and a tribe called quest

on the right track at the library, sitting at a table. studying my balls off. blog break. listening to tribe called quest, who calm me down to the point of relaxation. im actualy getting alot done.

currently listening to
Same ol thing - A tribe called quest

Cosby saved my life

what an amazing night.
today was the last day of classes and i studied for a big chunk of the day. bill cosby is my hero. he spoke with so much passion and conviction tonight, and it moved me. he reminded me that i need to be me, i need to strive for excellence, i need to believe in myself because if i dont i just "de-value" myself. his life stories were great examples of how i want to live my life. he said that we as people need to speak from our hearts and speak honestly. we cannot be cowards regardless to any situation.

i loved it. before tonight i was unmotivated to study for my finals, now i am ready to do work. he motivated me to do my best in everything that i do.

bill cosby is a swell guy. im really glad i saw that show. im glad that i have the balls to do what is right. i am proud that i try my best to never let anyone down, i keep my promises and never say im going to do things and not do them later.

"i got an A in calculus"
"that's good, you must love math"
"no, i hate it, i just never let it defeat me"

its time to do work

ANAOMY FINAL ONLINE!

i love it.

Currently listening to
My 6-4 - EAZY E

ukulele

this post is solely dedicated to my ukulele,
i cannot put into words how much music has saved me. starting with a cello, moving to a guitar, and then to the bass, music has gotten me through so much. and now almost 2 years ago i am now re united with my ukulele. Hawaiian for "jumping Flea", called so because as the players fingers moved across the finger board, their fingers looked like jumping fleas.
i have very little knowledge of players, but am inspired by 2 amazing ones. the first being Israel "IZ" Kamakawiwo'ole and his beautiful rendition of somewhere over the rainbow. a song that i listen to while i relax because it takes me to a place of peace. the second player being Jake shimabukuro, whos amazing skill is only topped by his passion for music.
music brings me to a different place. a place where all the hassles of life can be put away and you can just be happy. i think i forgot that, and now am reminded thanks to my trusty ukulele.

i love this piece of wood.
i miss hawaii

currently listening to
Somewhere over the rainbow( IZ tribute) - Jake Shimabukuro

LOL SO MANY ENERGY

WHO LOVES 5 HOUR ENERGY,
I LOVE 5 HOUR ENERGY. WHY DID I DRINK ONE? SIMPLE, GOTS ME A BIG OL TEST TOMMOROW. BUT HEY IVE BEEN STUDYING ALL DAY AND I AM VERY VERY JITERY RIGHT NOW. for sids birthday i bought him one of those electro tracks with the cars and shit. yea. also i finished 30 rock season 1 yesterday so i needs to get season 2. its awesome show you should watch it

im too hyper to say anything else i need to study so ill go do that
later yall
wish me luck for tommorows

currently listening to/ukuleleing
afternoon delight - whoever sings that song

back in the rich

back again,
time to work, but i have had a great break. brought my ukulele back, and bought a bunch of stuff on black friday. what a night that was. potomac mills was packed at midnight and it was pretty awesome. bought a dvd player for my family, some dvds and a pair of dunks. overall a successful black friday if you ask me.

but now im back and i am bored probably will continue to study after this post. i bought the new kanye album and i love it. im almost through the first season of 30 rock. the sad thing is i bought the box set yesterday.


currently listening to
Somewhere Over the rainbow - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

its almost here

Street lights, glowing
Happen to be just like moments
Passing, in front of me
So I hopped in
The cab and I paid my fairs
See I know my, destination
But I'm just not there

very excited for this release. im going home tomorrow and i am very excited. i need this break even though i am forced to study while i am home it will be a change and i need that right now. i need to do well on these last tests and finals, so its time to work. kshonda and sids birthday parties were super fun.

"IF I WAS IN THE SUN I WOULD BE PROTECTED!"

lol

currently listening to
Street Lights - Kanye West

inebriated stories part 2

today i went to short pump
but before i bought gloves from an awesome store
i dont mean to be a bore.
but britney spears is a whore
i need some sleep
because at 630 this mornign i peeped
my head is spinning
because i kept winning
in pong that is
im a fucking wiz
brendan was supposed to walk me home
mother fucker didnt so im pissed
but my friends janeahhhhhh and kelseyahhhhhhhh did
and i am deeply greatfull for it
they care about my safetey
and i thank them greatly
inebriated thoughts shall begin
in my mind all we did is win
this doesnt make sense
i love to eat sausages
man do i love them
like jesus loved bethlehem
the place were he was born
when he died people morned
but fuck that he came back
on the 3rd day he rose
why am i talking about htis
at shortpump today i sat in a chair
in nordstroms so i listened to a piano player
it was so good i loved it
man i wish he had played more
the best part was he played beauty and the beast music
that is all

currently listening to
Paranoid - Kanye West

we all self concious. im just the first to admit it

i sit here today,
i have no idea what im going to do. ive decided that i love this pressure that has recently been put upon me. i have this feeling that im gonna pull off a clutch win, in all of the obstacles ahead. FUCK YOU FINALS IM COMING FOR YA. for serious though, its time to buckle down, time to do work, time to study like its my fuckin job.

but enough on stressful topic. lets talk about what i have in my possession. mr jello pudding pops himself, bill cosby, is coming to vcu to speak and i have me a ticket. im pretty excited, purely because its random that they would get bill cosby for the 40th anniversary of vcu, but also because old people say the darnedest things.

its getting colder and i think i should purchase some fucking gloves.

currently listening to
All Falls Down - Kanye West

"it seem, we living the American dream, but people highest up, got the lowest self esteem..."

victory is sweet

cash money killahs win tonight
school is about to kick my ass

currently listening too
All Falls Down - Kanye West

the calm before the storm

today is sunday.
errr actualy now its monday. sorry for lack of posts i promise this one will be good though because i get to talk about feelings. YAY FEELINGS. stressed, excited, happy, sad, just take them all throw them into a mixer and thats what i am. stressed because i want the deans list so bad, and i can get it if i maintain my grades. its gonna be hard but college is supposed to be hard. hard work, a philosophy ive taken on in the past couple of weeks and i really think its paying off. i am glad to be caught up with all of my classes and even a little ahead in some of them. i love it, and i definitely do not miss being behind. but one thing i am worried about is finals. this enty is called the calm before the storm because it is my last week of partial stress. next week, its time to "do work", and i mean that in all senses of the phrase.

i found something that i once lost in my past, and that my friends is hockey. i play floor hockey, and i know its not the same as ice, but i truely believe that i would never be able to play again after i hurt my knee and to be honest i love every second i play. ive missed it so much. 5 years ago when the doctor told me i couldnt play again i cried. now i know that sounds like some bitch shit, but youd understand if you were an athelete whose dreams are shattered by an injury. no playing meant no more football, and no more hockey, the two things that i loved most. and here i am in college playing watered down versions of both. but in my mind i feel as if i hadnt hurt my knee, almost delusional, but still a great feeling.

sadness comes from lots of things. i find myself getting mad at my friends for no reason. it saddens me that the slightest thought makes me want to punch him in the face. i really dont know whats wrong with me. i really hope its just the stress getting to me and that i dont kick his ass. but on the real, sometimes i just want to kick him in the balls, and i dont know why. is it jealousy? is it that hes an asshole? or is it im an asshole? regardless to which ever one it is, its not good and i really wish for it to go away. i cant be kicking no ones ass.

i am really fucking excited for kanyes album to come out. YOU HAVE NO IDEA! im not gonna lie, after i heard love lockdown i hated on it a little. and then after i heard it was entirly in auto tune i hated on it more and more. but after listening to other songs and his message i changed my attitude towards it. it is different from anything ive ever heard before. i believe that he is a musical genius. its fucked up to say but his mother dieing and his fiance leaving him have sparked this musical growth within him. he no longer is limited to rap, but also pop. he uses his music to display his feelings no matter what. he stays true to his words and stands behind them even if people tell him hes wrong or wack. kanye west, although cocky as hell, will always speak from his heart and thats the kind of people we need these days. these fake people we run into on a day to day, do nothing but waste our time.

quote of the day
"whether i say something that's right, or the wrongest thing you've ever heard, its always from my heart, its always from my soul, its always me..."

currently listening to
Amazing - Kanye West feat. Young Jeezy
(taken off youtube but you can hear it here)
http://www.vibe.com/news/music/2008/11/kanye_west_amazing/

today is the day after probably one of the most important days of america

oh hello,
yesterday was awesome. but im late so i wont talk about it that much. it felt good to pick the candidate but more importantly i believe we picked the right one. to be honest i would have been fine with either one, ANY change is better than what we have currently. but enough of this politics mumbo jumbo, im really getting tired of it. The election is OVER, stop BITCHING.
onto another topic, today was a great day. after a productive class, i ride my bike home to see my friend who tells me that our 4 oclock is canceled. i went home and got really bored. so i ventured to the liburrrry and i got all of my shit done and was free from 6 oclock on. AMAZING. i like to call it alotted lazyness. i watched anchorman, one of my favorite movies. (insert favorite part here)

soda outa the nose funny. but yea, after i got to that part i decieded to venture off on the streets of richmond on my trusty friend super drop. super drop is a BMX bike shown here.
hes not much but super fast and super fun to take off of curbs. sid asks me why i keep him in this city environment. to be honest i see no other alternative. it keeps me unique, i can pick it out of any bikes in the crowd and i is my lone savior this semester. it has calmed me down on so many different occasions, it has saved me from the tyrany of boredom, but most importantly it has been a good friend who does not flake on me. i realize today that it can go wicked fast as i got from kroger to B and B in about 2 minutes.
tommorow i look forward to hpex 200 class, but more importantly i look forward to yoga for runners at 1030.
anyways i should go to bed soon being that hpex 200 is at 8.
i leave you with this

jesse jackson is just funny to me okay!

oh LOLOLLOLOLOL

thanks to a friend i stumbled upon this
i laughed for 20 minutes
and peed a little

no more abuse

dear blog-ary.
its been a while friend ive been too lazy to post, but now i feel it is time for the redemption post. i have been doin good over the past couple of however many days ive been gone. HALLOWEEN was a fuckin blast, i went to a party on thursday night and had so much fun. my costume this year, inflatable sumo, i now know what it feels like to have everyone look at you because you are fat, and also what it feels like to have 6 AA bateries in your pocket.
in other news, i fell off of my bike today. i hurt my ass and my shoulder but im fine. i went on another one of my infamous midnight rides. if you didnt know, i only go on these rides if i am either depressed, sad or stressed. in this case i was all three. i did something a little different this time. i went to the compass and i layed down on the wall. keep in mind that it is 12 15 and there is no one around. i truley was the most peaceful experience i have had here at VCU. i was there for 30 minutes doing nothing but staring at the sky and what little stars were up there. i forgot about everything in that time. and ofcourse i rode my bike to the comons courtyard and ate shit there, which is the only bad part about my night.
thats all i got for you tonight
later days buddy


currently listening to
Daydreamin' - Lupe Fiasco

TNN WINS

its late again,
sorry blog for being so busy and creating these short entries, but i got an 8 am and i gots to go sleepy soon. but anyways my flag team murdered today. 35-7. thats really all i gotta say. im tired and i gotta do turbo kick in the morning. later days

currently listening to
We Are The Champions-Queen

oh poo

too busy to blog,
so this is coming to you in bullet form

• today i got sick
  
• turbokick in the morning did not help
• youtube= babies eating lemons+sleepy kitty+people falling off segways
• study study
• kicking it and listening to tupac

currently listening to
Thugz Mansion - Tupac feat. Nas

POOP

i am getting sick , i hates it

bright sides

lucy my guitar is here

lacrosse things are here

homework is all done before 12

i changed my strings today and my guitar sounds beautiful


currently listening to/playing
Beautiful Mess - Jason Mraz

day 3 of the home experience

well.
i went to brendans house, then vienna to see the sidney and the lisa, great times. i loves those guys. my cousins came in today and im glad cuz i havent seen them in a while but it is awesome to spend time with them. my aunt is surprised at my knowlage of journey especialy at my age. she also was un aware that the great randy jackson played for them for a while.
i had a great day.

i hope you did too

currently listening to
Lights - Journey

OH HELLO NEW LAPTOP

yes you heard right,
i got a new laptop today because the one here at home exploded. this also means that i am home too, im glad for this break. ive been working really hard in school and i am excited to see my friends who go to nova/mason.
so my old laptop had vista but it was vista basic, meaning it was a retarded version of vista. i purposly open several windows so i can cycle through them by pushing windows+tab. its very fun. but anyways tommorow, im going to do 4 hours of observation at the old physical therapy clinic that i myself had gotten treatment at. im very excited because they may still remember me because my knee literaly exploded there. i am very excited


currently listening to
Naturally 7 - Feel It

oh hello

today was alright,
just a normal day i guess. its been a while since i just sat down and studied at the library. i was there for about 2 hours and wonder why such a feat can be done there but not anywhere else. is it lack of distractions, or just the library atmosphere. maybe its in the music i listened too, a combination of mraz and boys 2 men, always a favorite of mine when im studying. i makes me wonder how music has its ways with people. i am a mess in silence, but the mellow sounds of jason mraz helps me to focus even more.

on that note i leave you with this
i stumbled upon this guy a couple of weeks ago
hes from richmond
very jason mrazesk

rants of inebriation

so i sit, on my chair,
as i curiously feel my hair,
i dont know anyone whose name is claire,
but if i did, id probably be a bear,
i went to a friends house and went through the motions,
and lol we all drank some crazy potions,
brendan maur has an asortment of lotions,
what he does with them we do not speak,
for it is then that we shall not seek,
to see what he does behind closed doors
a word i find funny is the word whores
and now i shall go to bed completely fufil
because that party was like frolicing on top of a hill
we should do it again because it was fun
but next time i will draw a bulls eye on my tum


currently listening to
Flagpole Sitta - Harvey Danger

just a little bit of captain

Rockband 2=happy

currently listening too
Good Riddance - Green Day

SO FUCKIN NICE OUTSIDE

well today is awesome. first off lets talk about last night, went to my friend brosiedens crib and kicked it with him and some new friends. brosieden, your revalations are amazing, and if you dont know what im talking about, well heres an example...

"GODS LIGHT IS NON EXSISTANT IN THE DARK REALMS...we're still going to rite aid right?"

LOLOLOLOLOL
so amazingly funny. but anyways, todays weather is amazing, i actualy am thinking about going out and throwing the old pig skin around who knows. tonight i dont know what im going to do, probably chill, possibly another carytown run. later yall, and happyness explotions for all.

currently listening to
Fingerprints - Tyga

...

oh and my bike inner tube popped

today... not so good

so im sitting here writing a paper for hpex 200 due at 8 tommorow morning so im gonna keep it short. today sucked, yada yada yada. the only high light was that i took a tour of a clinical exercize science lab and it was awesome. this may be what i get into being that i am a exercise science major. all the technology they had was amazing, not to mention this big ass machine of which only five exsist on the east coast.
other than that, its been pretty crappy today, lots of work was done so i guess thats good. i lost my game today, that sucked.

okay im done, im going to finish this stupid paper so i can go to sleep and then wake up at seven

currently listening to
Aint No Sunshine - Bill Withers

LOL I LOVE YOU GUYS

this guy hangs from my wall. he makes me happy.

that is all

currently listening too
Moment of Truth - Gang Starr

oh how was your day? OH I DONT KNOW...GREAT!

OH SHIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
HEATRKASYHAFDKSATJEA

got my grade on that anatomy practical. i continue to destroy these test and i wonder now if it was at all remotely possible for me to pass the class last semester if i had put the work in to it that i am now. my mood today is extremely giddy, i love it. its as if i am overly happy, more happy than those AIM 6.0 exploding happy faces. i enjoy being 15 points above the class average it inspires me to do better and reminds me that all of this hard work will ultimately lead me to the career that i have always dreamed of being, a physical therapist. sure its a little soon to be getting my hopes up but like my friend kanye west says "shoot for the stars, so if you fall, you land in the clouds." my back up plan is a child hood dream of mine, it may sound funny but if this whole pt thing doesn't work out i will then pursue my dream of being a Firefighter EMT. every kids dream, after all if you do know me i am a child at heart and act like it all the time. please do not see this as imaturity, because that is not what it is. it is simply a reminder that i child hood is the most important part of someones life, at least for me it is. my deal is that my inner child is probably bigger than anyone elses inner child.
thats all for now. i might post again later. who knows

currently listening to
2nd Period: Shoot down the stars- Gym Class Heroes

its been a good day

today was good,
this morning i dragged my ass out of bed and journeyed to statistics. blah blah blah anatomy blah blah blah anatomy practical blah blah blah. other than all of that crap i have to say that this monday doesnt suck like the rest of them do. after class i hung out at brendan and sids. oooh brendan that reminds me of that pizza we ate today. so i guess becuase this is a story in its own it deserves its own paragraph, in dialogue form.

brendan-hello?
me-hello?
brendan-helloooooooooo
me-HELLOOOOOOO
brendan-hellooooooooo

it was at this point where i saw that this wasnt going anywhere so i spiced it up. i honestly thought i was making an old man voice but brendan says that i sounded like an old chinese waiter. which i thought was funny and we loled for a bit. after like 5 minutes of greeting we decieded to go get some food. and that god damn quiznos was too crowded. so we super swiped us some pizza.

This pizza did horrible things to me. lets just say i was studying for anatomy and my intestines decieded to push the eject button. but dont worry folks i was planing to take a pre test shit anyways and the life science bathrooms are generaly clean. on another note my test went well i only wasnt sure about 2-4 of the questions which i am extremely proud of myself for.

well i guess ill end with several random thoughts:
- Dragon ball the movie seems very dissapointing after seeing its new teaser trailer and i want to know why goku is a bro.
-justice is making a documentary, thats just something i think will be very exciting because i am a big fan of their music
-a norweigian zombie film will be released soon by the name of cold dead i think. it seems amusing because its a movie about nazi zombies
-quiznos forgot to put veggies in my sammich today. i thought you got better than that quiznos, why must you betray me.

and i guess till next time thats it
have a super night/day

oh, hello there world

Good evening,
My name is John and I just decided randomly to start one of these things up. people tell me that it is good to release your stress, its good to let it all out because in the long run it is healthier for you. me i try not to put my self in those situations, i try to find all the good that i possibly can in everything that i do. Positivity is what i strive for, it is what i live for, and it is what my life is based upon. if you know me you know that i am a generaly happy person, im fun loving and jovial at all times. and if you find any way other than that at any other time, take a picture because it does not happen often.

i love my friends, and would do anything for them, but here i find myself in a predicament with some of them. current situations have awoken lost feelings from within me and i find myself confused and depressed. people dont know this but i have always been the one whose heart was broken after a relationship. i find myself wondering what it is about me that doesnt do well with the ladies. in any other department i am text book fearless, i am down for anything and am ruthlessly competitive when it comes to sports. but when a girl walks by i become bashfull and shy. i guess for now i really dont need a girl i got other things to worry about, but i guess it would be nice

well enough on that topic, i really dont know what else to say so i guess ill talk about my favorite quote of all time.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

This came out of a book writen by Marianne Williamson.( a book i actualy want to read) not from coach carter or from the famous nelson mandella. this quote inspires me to stay positive in life. now i know that sounds cliche but if you read it closely ,in my opinion, it describes my lifestyle. positivity and couarage guid me to do what i think is right and do what comes from the heart. an infectcious quality, that "automaticaly liberates others."