tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55693043708840462572024-03-14T01:59:44.085-04:00NO1willREADthisWTF IS GOING ONannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.comBlogger49125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-38198329110297968382009-11-12T10:22:00.002-05:002009-11-12T10:27:29.084-05:00boredhere i am again.<br />currently im sitting in my abnormal psychology class bored as a mother fuckarrrrrrr. its been raining here in RVA, and to be quite honest, i dont like it. it really bothering my knee and ruining my day for the past 2 days. lol that makes me feel like an old man, I GOT A BAROMETER IN MY FUCKING KNEE. yesterday got better becasue i went to target. initialy i was there to get the new wale cd( yes ive gone legit) and some groceries, but no, they dont have it at target. so in all of my bummed out ness i came across the most amazing thing, onsie pajamas! you would be crazy to think that i did not buy them. sure they barely fit, and are kinda tight in the junk area but they are comfortable and very warm. <br />obscure purchases solve every problem.<br /><br />currently listening to Mirrors- Wale Feat. Bun Bannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-2914812355840493252009-09-02T00:17:00.002-04:002009-09-02T00:24:12.099-04:00hmmmoh hello there.<br />wow its been a while. ive been reading the previous posts and i notice that all of them are about being depressed or sad, lets change that. <br /><br />i am really looking forward to this year, i have a feeling that big things will happen and ill see a changed me. <br /><br />also<br /><br />ladies and gentlemen, mr james taylor.<br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/-T35WXFOmwI&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/-T35WXFOmwI&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>annonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-25096476540570756512009-05-09T01:31:00.002-04:002009-05-09T01:40:43.135-04:00im doneits been a while, wayyyy too long actually.<br />im finished with exams and classes this semester, and i feel that i have done nothing but waste my time these past couple of months. my grades suck and i feel like i am more confused about where im going in life than i ever was before. im lost right now and i don't see that changing any time soon. <br />tomorrow i go home. hopefully there, i'll figure myself out. ive even been contemplating going on social hiatus for the summer, meaning disconnecting from the world. gym, summer school, home; that's all it would be. <br />who knows? im sure you'll figure it out within the next week.annonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-39518136942309133662009-04-15T10:02:00.002-04:002009-04-15T10:02:59.160-04:00REDDDDDD BULLLLLLLLLREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDBULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-56734409308553560172009-03-26T00:59:00.002-04:002009-03-26T01:05:06.271-04:00hidden meaning?hello there?<br />for the past 3 or 4 nights,i have been annoyed by a bird. this bird enjoys sitting in the tree that sits outside of my window and just chirps away into the night. i wanted to shoot it until i put myself in this birds shoes, or talons. what if he or she is waiting for another bird, maybe its afraid to fly at night, maybe its here to keep my from sleeping, maybe hes lost...annonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-37169003452278090522009-03-21T12:09:00.001-04:002009-03-21T12:09:39.942-04:00i miss the glory, that is allannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-2125984247973719402009-03-17T02:06:00.001-04:002009-03-17T02:07:42.424-04:00musicAnd if I was brave, I'd climb up to you on the mountain<br /><br />currently listening to A Walk Through Hell - Say Anything<br /><br />also papers are gayannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-43323254395602265502009-02-28T11:35:00.002-05:002009-02-28T11:47:47.062-05:00new looklifes too short to be a bitch about things.annonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-75502046440940456842009-02-14T02:35:00.002-05:002009-02-14T02:50:04.919-05:00by myselfi forgot how much i enjoyed riding my bike by myself at night. its something that i havent been able to do in a while and im super pumped that i was able to do so tonight. just something about being away from everyone and away from work and away from drama, its just great. my spot was availiable as usual and i sat there for a while.<br /><br />i like to sit outside the commons at night in the courtyard. its something that ive always done just to sit and think. this is actualy the first weekend in a while were i didnt have the urge to go out and get drunk. as i sat there i was in a complete state of relaxation. i havent been able to do this in a while, cuz of all thats going on in my life,errrr actualy all the things being taken away from me. <br /><br />im not gonna lie, im not looking forward to my surgery. it may be just some routine procedure that the doctor has done a million times. but my fear of hospitals makes me anxious and im really bothered by it. im trying to keep busy by doing my work and hangin with friends but there are those times where im by myself and i just feel really scared. i feel like this whole experience has just made me bitter, a bitterness thats hidden under a happy front. <br /><br />trying to stay busy has worked so far, but there are still those times where im by myself and i just feel shitty. tonight is actualy the first time i have been able to sit by myself and enjoy my surroundings. but why can i not do this all the time. why do i find my self in a state of anger when the littlest things push me. <br /><br />man, this sucksannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-9041475774438894392009-01-29T18:20:00.000-05:002009-01-29T18:21:05.799-05:00and i just wanna be...I want to be as free as the spirits of those who left<br />I'm talking Malcom, Coltrane, my man Yusef<br />Through death through conception<br />New breath and resurrection<br />For moms, new steps in her direction<br />In the right way<br />Told inside is where the fight lay<br />And everything a nigga do may not be what he might say<br />Chicago nights stay, stay on the mind<br />But I write many lives and lay on these lines<br />Wave the signs of the times<br />Many say the grind's on the mind<br />Shorties blunted-eyed and everyone wanna rhyme<br />Bush pushing lies, killers immortalized<br />We got arms but won't reach for the skies<br />Waiting for the Lord to rise<br />I look into my daughter's eyes<br />And realize that I'm gonna learn through her<br />The Messiah, might even return through her<br />If I'm gonna do it, I gotta change the world through her<br />Furs and a Benz, gramps wantin 'em<br />Demons and old friends, pops they hauntin' him<br />The chosen one from the land of the frozen sun<br />When drunk nights get remembered more than sober ones<br />Walk like warriors, we were never told to run<br />Explored the world to return to where my soul begun<br />Never looking back or too far in front of me<br />The present is a gift<br />and I just wanna BEannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-90823344340407841852009-01-28T21:25:00.001-05:002009-01-28T21:25:58.993-05:00fuck nick and nora93' till infinity - souls of mischief<br />everyday struggle - The Notorious B.I.G.<br />Breakout - N.E.R.D.<br />The Good Life - Kanye West<br />Electric Relaxation - A Tribe Called Quest<br />C.R.E.A.M. - Wu Tang Clan<br />Daydreamin' - Lupe Fiasco<br />Seed 2.0 - The Roots<br />Black Mags - The Cool Kids<br />Say - Method Man<br />When the Last Time - Clipse<br />Intergalactic - Beastie Boys<br />Anouncement - Common<br />Cupids Chokehold - Gym Class Heroes<br />Whats Golden - Jurrasic 5<br />Since youve been gone - Kelly Clarksonannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-84953898642953773812009-01-20T23:49:00.002-05:002009-01-21T00:01:08.350-05:00what is fear?What is fear?<br />it makes you sweat,<br />it makes you nervous,<br />it makes your heart race.<br />you ask me what fear is and i tell you its helplessness,<br />an emotion that leaves you petrified,<br />a feeling so assholeish and butholeworthy that you hate it.<br /><br />but sometimes its motivation,<br />like "oh shit im going to die, better do something about that"<br />or "i dont want to lose you, i have to do something"<br /><br />it drives us to do crazy things,<br />it drives us to do things outside of our comfort levels if and only if we conquer it.<br />it makes us crazy, <br />it makes us confused, <br />and it sends chills down our spines.<br /><br />fear lives within all of us.<br />it lives within me, <br />it lives within you, <br />and if you think it doesn't,<br />you're crazy.<br /><br />fear is an adverb<br />i fear losing my leg<br />i fear losing sports<br />i fear losing happiness.<br /><br />most importantly though, <br />fear is a bitch.<br />a bitch that i shall overcome.<br />a bitch that has the balls to stand up to me, <br />and stare me down.<br />a bitch that i can look in the eyes and say...<br /><br /><br />suck my dick.<br /><br /><br />Currently listening to-<br />93 till infinity - souls of mischiefannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-76299451369241475072009-01-16T23:49:00.002-05:002009-01-17T00:01:53.075-05:00friday night at homeits friday,<br />i choose to spend it with shark week on mute on the tv and listen to biggies ready to die album. <br /><br />it occurs to me that biggie is a genius. specificaly in his song entitled everyday struggle. his story and flow connect you emotionaly to his music. the mellow beat and his infectious flow put you in such a good mood. i could listen to this for the rest of the night and be satisfied. <br /><br />today was boring. i dont understand what it is, but ive been really bored lately and at the same time maybe a smidge depressed. i really have no reason to be, i mean i got lots of good friends, people that make me happy and that i can trust, thats all you really need nowadays. i guess its just that im lonely. i mean i am sitting here listening to biggy and watching tv. <br /><br />reguardless, i really wanted to go out tonight but someone flaked on me again. i think that this mother fucker is really the only one of my friends that i dont really trust with anything anymore. hes so unreliable and really all it does is piss me off.<br /><br />im probably gonna read my book and listen to biggie for the rest of the night.<br />later days<br /><br />currently listening to <br />Mo' Money, Mo' Problems - The Notorious B.I.G.annonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-38300950279097996242009-01-08T13:06:00.002-05:002009-01-08T13:31:34.014-05:00the one book i enjoyoh hi,<br />it is amazing to me the amount of negativity there is in this world today. i sit here asking myself, why can i be so happy in a time of war and depression? why is it that when shit happens i can stand up and smile? why is it that my desired profession is inching further and further away from me and yet i still keep truckin, still keep my motivation at where i think is its highest point yet?<br />ive been thinking these things for a while now and decided i needed a little re assurance. it is then that i decided to go out and buy a book called A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson, a book i originally read in the hospital, where i spent nearly 2 weeks and almost died from a staph infection. it not only got me through such a painful time but it changed me. all the negativity built up inside, hatred and built up anger, were released almost immediately. it cleared my head, and i believe it made me a better person. it just all made sense to me.<br />it talks about how love is one of the most important aspects of live. you may be thinking love in terms of love in relationship but that is not the only definition of the term. it is an energy, one that cannot be seen or touched, but only felt. an energy that can change the mood of a room or motivate the minds of the unsure or depressed. an energy that i feel is important to utilize in every day life. <br />halfway through rereading the book i am re inspired to help others. i realize now that i wanted to become a physical thereapist so that i may do so. ive pondered the many other careers which envolve this and i might look into counseling, or psychiatry.<br />"Love is within us. It cannot be destroyed, but can only be hidden. The world we knew as children is still buried within our minds." <br />Currently listening to - Everyday Struggle - the Notorious B.I.G.annonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-50345979184065822452008-12-31T19:37:00.002-05:002008-12-31T19:48:06.502-05:00hello 2009not here yet,<br />1) lose more weight<br />2) dont be a dick<br />3) do my best in school<br />4) learn more extreme tricks on my bike<br />5) no C's this semester, DAMNIT!<br />6) finish "A return to love" by Marianne Williamson, and continue to live by it<br /><br />Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.<br /><br />Marianne Williamsonannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-23405687835068226822008-12-25T00:51:00.002-05:002008-12-25T01:18:38.681-05:00oh boyChristmas,<br />a time of joy. <br />this year my mom gave me a card. its contents were 100 bucks and a meaningful message. it said she was proud of me, and that i can do anything that i set my mind to. i love my mom. <br />it has been a while where someone has said that to me and i believed it. <br /><br />Christmas = hope<br /><br /><br />currently listening to <br />any and all Christmas jamsannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-80088729669819090262008-12-12T03:42:00.000-05:002008-12-12T03:43:38.794-05:00number 2 destroyeddear anatomy,<br />FUCK YOU<br />SUCK MY DICK BITCH<br /><br /><br /><br />14 hours later and you are finished<br /><br /><br />i wash my hands of youannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-23781558327835379232008-12-10T15:10:00.003-05:002008-12-10T15:12:52.066-05:00and so it beginsin approximately 50 minutes,<br />i will be taking exam number one of 4. <br /><br />all last night and all morning today i have been listening to loud and obnoxious hip hop.<br /><br /><br /><br />I M FUCKING PUMPEDannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-33528552676803446692008-12-10T11:40:00.001-05:002008-12-10T11:42:31.427-05:00the day has comeLETS DO THIS SHIT!<br /><br /><br />currently listening to <br />eye of the tiger - rocky sound track<br />we are the champions - Queen<br />we ready - archie<br />everything on crunk juice - lil jon and the east side boysannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-44765010394263765372008-12-08T23:52:00.002-05:002008-12-08T23:54:10.734-05:00fuck the libraryover the past couple days, <br />5 to be exact, i have been there for about 46-56 hours.<br />THATS 2FUCKING DAYS.<br /><br />fuck that shit<br /><br />lets go to rite aid.<br /><br />bitchass library...<br />currently listening to<br />big poppa- THE notorious BIGannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-70613899307517990642008-12-08T00:57:00.002-05:002008-12-08T01:00:04.189-05:00all i needsyes,<br /><br />anatomy, hoodie, and a tribe called quest <br /><br />on the right track at the library, sitting at a table. studying my balls off. blog break. listening to tribe called quest, who calm me down to the point of relaxation. im actualy getting alot done.<br /><br />currently listening to <br />Same ol thing - A tribe called questannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-52327357828245999562008-12-06T01:12:00.002-05:002008-12-06T01:48:48.272-05:00Cosby saved my lifewhat an amazing night.<br />today was the last day of classes and i studied for a big chunk of the day. bill cosby is my hero. he spoke with so much passion and conviction tonight, and it moved me. he reminded me that i need to be me, i need to strive for excellence, i need to believe in myself because if i dont i just "de-value" myself. his life stories were great examples of how i want to live my life. he said that we as people need to speak from our hearts and speak honestly. we cannot be cowards regardless to any situation.<br /><br />i loved it. before tonight i was unmotivated to study for my finals, now i am ready to do work. he motivated me to do my best in everything that i do. <br /><br />bill cosby is a swell guy. im really glad i saw that show. im glad that i have the balls to do what is right. i am proud that i try my best to never let anyone down, i keep my promises and never say im going to do things and not do them later. <br /><br />"i got an A in calculus"<br />"that's good, you must love math"<br />"no, i hate it, i just never let it defeat me"<br /><br />its time to do workannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-82852828460913025362008-12-04T16:59:00.003-05:002008-12-04T17:05:43.413-05:00ANAOMY FINAL ONLINE!i love it.<br /><br />Currently listening to <br />My 6-4 - EAZY Eannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-36938857971828106822008-12-01T20:38:00.001-05:002008-12-01T20:49:48.958-05:00ukulelethis post is solely dedicated to my ukulele,<br />i cannot put into words how much music has saved me. starting with a cello, moving to a guitar, and then to the bass, music has gotten me through so much. and now almost 2 years ago i am now re united with my ukulele. Hawaiian for "jumping Flea", called so because as the players fingers moved across the finger board, their fingers looked like jumping fleas. <br />i have very little knowledge of players, but am inspired by 2 amazing ones. the first being Israel "IZ" Kamakawiwo'ole and his beautiful rendition of somewhere over the rainbow. a song that i listen to while i relax because it takes me to a place of peace. the second player being Jake shimabukuro, whos amazing skill is only topped by his passion for music. <br />music brings me to a different place. a place where all the hassles of life can be put away and you can just be happy. i think i forgot that, and now am reminded thanks to my trusty ukulele.<br /><br />i love this piece of wood.<br />i miss hawaii<br /><br />currently listening to <br />Somewhere over the rainbow( IZ tribute) - Jake Shimabukuroannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5569304370884046257.post-53151863498136798062008-12-01T00:54:00.002-05:002008-12-01T00:57:45.626-05:00LOL SO MANY ENERGYWHO LOVES 5 HOUR ENERGY,<br />I LOVE 5 HOUR ENERGY. WHY DID I DRINK ONE? SIMPLE, GOTS ME A BIG OL TEST TOMMOROW. BUT HEY IVE BEEN STUDYING ALL DAY AND I AM VERY VERY JITERY RIGHT NOW. for sids birthday i bought him one of those electro tracks with the cars and shit. yea. also i finished 30 rock season 1 yesterday so i needs to get season 2. its awesome show you should watch it<br /><br />im too hyper to say anything else i need to study so ill go do that<br />later yall <br />wish me luck for tommorows<br /><br />currently listening to/ukuleleing<br />afternoon delight - whoever sings that songannonymoushipopotomushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04121165273683199475noreply@blogger.com0