hello 2009

not here yet,
1) lose more weight
2) dont be a dick
3) do my best in school
4) learn more extreme tricks on my bike
5) no C's this semester, DAMNIT!
6) finish "A return to love" by Marianne Williamson, and continue to live by it

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Marianne Williamson

oh boy

Christmas,
a time of joy.
this year my mom gave me a card. its contents were 100 bucks and a meaningful message. it said she was proud of me, and that i can do anything that i set my mind to. i love my mom.
it has been a while where someone has said that to me and i believed it.

Christmas = hope


currently listening to
any and all Christmas jams

number 2 destroyed

dear anatomy,
FUCK YOU
SUCK MY DICK BITCH



14 hours later and you are finished


i wash my hands of you

and so it begins

in approximately 50 minutes,
i will be taking exam number one of 4.

all last night and all morning today i have been listening to loud and obnoxious hip hop.



I M FUCKING PUMPED

the day has come

LETS DO THIS SHIT!


currently listening to
eye of the tiger - rocky sound track
we are the champions - Queen
we ready - archie
everything on crunk juice - lil jon and the east side boys

fuck the library

over the past couple days,
5 to be exact, i have been there for about 46-56 hours.
THATS 2FUCKING DAYS.

fuck that shit

lets go to rite aid.

bitchass library...
currently listening to
big poppa- THE notorious BIG

all i needs

yes,

anatomy, hoodie, and a tribe called quest

on the right track at the library, sitting at a table. studying my balls off. blog break. listening to tribe called quest, who calm me down to the point of relaxation. im actualy getting alot done.

currently listening to
Same ol thing - A tribe called quest

Cosby saved my life

what an amazing night.
today was the last day of classes and i studied for a big chunk of the day. bill cosby is my hero. he spoke with so much passion and conviction tonight, and it moved me. he reminded me that i need to be me, i need to strive for excellence, i need to believe in myself because if i dont i just "de-value" myself. his life stories were great examples of how i want to live my life. he said that we as people need to speak from our hearts and speak honestly. we cannot be cowards regardless to any situation.

i loved it. before tonight i was unmotivated to study for my finals, now i am ready to do work. he motivated me to do my best in everything that i do.

bill cosby is a swell guy. im really glad i saw that show. im glad that i have the balls to do what is right. i am proud that i try my best to never let anyone down, i keep my promises and never say im going to do things and not do them later.

"i got an A in calculus"
"that's good, you must love math"
"no, i hate it, i just never let it defeat me"

its time to do work

ANAOMY FINAL ONLINE!

i love it.

Currently listening to
My 6-4 - EAZY E

ukulele

this post is solely dedicated to my ukulele,
i cannot put into words how much music has saved me. starting with a cello, moving to a guitar, and then to the bass, music has gotten me through so much. and now almost 2 years ago i am now re united with my ukulele. Hawaiian for "jumping Flea", called so because as the players fingers moved across the finger board, their fingers looked like jumping fleas.
i have very little knowledge of players, but am inspired by 2 amazing ones. the first being Israel "IZ" Kamakawiwo'ole and his beautiful rendition of somewhere over the rainbow. a song that i listen to while i relax because it takes me to a place of peace. the second player being Jake shimabukuro, whos amazing skill is only topped by his passion for music.
music brings me to a different place. a place where all the hassles of life can be put away and you can just be happy. i think i forgot that, and now am reminded thanks to my trusty ukulele.

i love this piece of wood.
i miss hawaii

currently listening to
Somewhere over the rainbow( IZ tribute) - Jake Shimabukuro

LOL SO MANY ENERGY

WHO LOVES 5 HOUR ENERGY,
I LOVE 5 HOUR ENERGY. WHY DID I DRINK ONE? SIMPLE, GOTS ME A BIG OL TEST TOMMOROW. BUT HEY IVE BEEN STUDYING ALL DAY AND I AM VERY VERY JITERY RIGHT NOW. for sids birthday i bought him one of those electro tracks with the cars and shit. yea. also i finished 30 rock season 1 yesterday so i needs to get season 2. its awesome show you should watch it

im too hyper to say anything else i need to study so ill go do that
later yall
wish me luck for tommorows

currently listening to/ukuleleing
afternoon delight - whoever sings that song